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total dedication, kieran erik norman, r.i.p
location: in my room
mood: 
cold
cold
kieran erik norman wasn't a "huge" part of my life. but he was enough to make an impact on me. an impact that'll last with me forever. i met him in november of 2006, we briefly dated, but it didn't turn out in our favor. he'd been still trying to figure out who he was, and i just wasn't ready. going our separate ways, we didn't see one another for almost a year. then this last november, he got a hold of me. he was doing a lot better, and had a better grasp on who he was. i could clearly see that he was different, and a changed man. we spent one wonderful night together, hanging out, goofing off, and having a blast. i have a picture of me talking on the phone to him while getting ready, and i had the biggest grin on my face.
after that night, i didn't get to see him again. not once. yet i managed to talk him away from an attempt at his life in january or february. things hadn't been going well for him, and he called on me when he needed someone. i was genuinely upset, and feared for his life that night. i wanted to see him so badly, but had no way to his place. then on april 21st i was watching the news and heard that he'd disappeared down the spokane river. i freaked and reached out to one of his friends to find out if it was actually true. confirmed, i really was devastated. i wasn't able to concentrate in school, nothing.
i love kieran, maybe not in the way of being in love, but as a best friend, and someone that i knew was going to be a part of my life for years to come. or so i thought. i took him for granted, i wasn't there as much as i should have been, and admittedly, i had some chances to see him, and turned them down. those are my biggest regrets. not telling him how i truly felt, and not being with, and there, for him more. i dedicated the song, bye bye by mariah carey to him. i will never say bye to kieran. he'll always be a part of my heart, and i'll cherish the conversations, the jokes, the seconds, minutes, and days i got with him. i just want his family to know that i i'm sorry for missing the memorial, but at the time, there was no closure, and i didn't want to accept that he was gone. i still don't. but kieran fully believe in living life to the fullest, and getting the best out of it that you could. he wanted to do so many things and even wanted me to go back-packing with him in europe this summer. that was a little far-fetched, and obviously will never get to happen. but now, i'll make it to europe, and think of him. i've already fulfilled one of his dreams; leaving spokane. i will get to the other one.
kieran, i will never forget your bright, blue eyes, the cheesy grin you wore, the huskiness to your voice, the way you could make me laugh even when i was feeling at my worst. my memories with you will always be the times i think back to. especially christmas, casino royale, and awake. the season we were always drawn close, and the two movies that we both loved and saw with each other. you had so much ahead of you, i can't believe you're gone.
now, kieran wasn't the "greatest" writer, but he was talented. and when we started talking again in november, he sent me two poems he wrote. one was dedicated to me, the other was a general one that he wrote. i'd like to share both of them.
after that night, i didn't get to see him again. not once. yet i managed to talk him away from an attempt at his life in january or february. things hadn't been going well for him, and he called on me when he needed someone. i was genuinely upset, and feared for his life that night. i wanted to see him so badly, but had no way to his place. then on april 21st i was watching the news and heard that he'd disappeared down the spokane river. i freaked and reached out to one of his friends to find out if it was actually true. confirmed, i really was devastated. i wasn't able to concentrate in school, nothing.
i love kieran, maybe not in the way of being in love, but as a best friend, and someone that i knew was going to be a part of my life for years to come. or so i thought. i took him for granted, i wasn't there as much as i should have been, and admittedly, i had some chances to see him, and turned them down. those are my biggest regrets. not telling him how i truly felt, and not being with, and there, for him more. i dedicated the song, bye bye by mariah carey to him. i will never say bye to kieran. he'll always be a part of my heart, and i'll cherish the conversations, the jokes, the seconds, minutes, and days i got with him. i just want his family to know that i i'm sorry for missing the memorial, but at the time, there was no closure, and i didn't want to accept that he was gone. i still don't. but kieran fully believe in living life to the fullest, and getting the best out of it that you could. he wanted to do so many things and even wanted me to go back-packing with him in europe this summer. that was a little far-fetched, and obviously will never get to happen. but now, i'll make it to europe, and think of him. i've already fulfilled one of his dreams; leaving spokane. i will get to the other one.
kieran, i will never forget your bright, blue eyes, the cheesy grin you wore, the huskiness to your voice, the way you could make me laugh even when i was feeling at my worst. my memories with you will always be the times i think back to. especially christmas, casino royale, and awake. the season we were always drawn close, and the two movies that we both loved and saw with each other. you had so much ahead of you, i can't believe you're gone.
now, kieran wasn't the "greatest" writer, but he was talented. and when we started talking again in november, he sent me two poems he wrote. one was dedicated to me, the other was a general one that he wrote. i'd like to share both of them.
You Are…
You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
You are there... yes that's you.
Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.
You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.
Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
I do hope that our friendship will never unfold
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.
By: Kieran Norman
Dedicated to Kacie Kay
november 28, 2007
ENCOURAGEMENT
Amidst our chaos and confusion;
Amidst our anguish and despair;
Amidst our never-ending questions and blame;
… Lies a world of lessons.
Through our tears and astonishment;
Through our hopelessness and depression;
Through our anxiety and grief;
… Lies a world of shame.
For it is our world that is responsible;
It is our world that allowed this sadness;
It is our world that has lost its youth;
… And it is our world that needs to change.
It is a warning for those who would isolate it;
It is a warning for those who would bury it;
It is a warning for those who think it will not touch them;
… It is we, who need to address it.
For this is the birth of our own generation;
This is the birth of our own problems;
This is the birth of our own past mistakes;
… It is we, who needed to watch over them.
A new generation who have hopes and dreams;
A new generation who have life and laughter;
A new generation who deserve a chance at peace;
… It is we who need to make them secure.
It is time to stop talking in circles;
It is time to stop blaming and pointing;
It is time to stop questioning and guessing;
… It is time to accept the burden and act.
We are not blameless;
We are not above reproach;
We are not perfect role models;
… For we are the generation they emulate.
Look beyond your own your circle of life;
Look beyond your picket fences and chained doors;
Look beyond your own backyard;
… And admit your frailties and failures.
Did you not once look the other way?
Did you not once stay quiet when you should have spoken?
Did you not once say I cannot change it?
… Do you know that we can make a difference?
One small voice can begin to move mountains;
One caring gesture can begin to enlighten others;
One shoulder to lean on, can ease another's pain;
… Did you know that you are that one?
Listen to those who are in jeopardy;
Listen to that small voice whispering that they are in trouble;
Listen to that child with the wayward, furtive glance;
… And be prepared to take part in their future.
For if you do not listen and talk;
If you do not participate and take responsibility;
If you do not guide and offer them your heart and wisdom;
… It is we, who will join in their misery.
It reaches beyond your own immediate children;
It reaches beyond their friends and peers;
It reaches beyond your nieces and nephews;
… For it is every child you come in contact with.
Positive action begins in our own backyards;
Positive action flows through your own neighborhood;
Positive action can encompass your own small town or city;
… And through this, we are all connected.
Be a mentor when others fail to counsel;
Be a counselor when others fail to listen;
Be a listener when others fail to notice;
… Be a positive experience with every child you meet.
For yesterday, someone looked the other way;
Yesterday, someone pretended they did not see;
Yesterday, someone passed by without offering help;
… But today, it is not too late.
Today, you can make a difference in someone's life;
Today, you can offer your love and guidance;
Today, you can choose to be a positive influence for another;
… And then maybe, just maybe, our world will change with you.
MUCH LOVE BY KIERAN NORMAN
november 26, 2007
Amidst our chaos and confusion;
Amidst our anguish and despair;
Amidst our never-ending questions and blame;
… Lies a world of lessons.
Through our tears and astonishment;
Through our hopelessness and depression;
Through our anxiety and grief;
… Lies a world of shame.
For it is our world that is responsible;
It is our world that allowed this sadness;
It is our world that has lost its youth;
… And it is our world that needs to change.
It is a warning for those who would isolate it;
It is a warning for those who would bury it;
It is a warning for those who think it will not touch them;
… It is we, who need to address it.
For this is the birth of our own generation;
This is the birth of our own problems;
This is the birth of our own past mistakes;
… It is we, who needed to watch over them.
A new generation who have hopes and dreams;
A new generation who have life and laughter;
A new generation who deserve a chance at peace;
… It is we who need to make them secure.
It is time to stop talking in circles;
It is time to stop blaming and pointing;
It is time to stop questioning and guessing;
… It is time to accept the burden and act.
We are not blameless;
We are not above reproach;
We are not perfect role models;
… For we are the generation they emulate.
Look beyond your own your circle of life;
Look beyond your picket fences and chained doors;
Look beyond your own backyard;
… And admit your frailties and failures.
Did you not once look the other way?
Did you not once stay quiet when you should have spoken?
Did you not once say I cannot change it?
… Do you know that we can make a difference?
One small voice can begin to move mountains;
One caring gesture can begin to enlighten others;
One shoulder to lean on, can ease another's pain;
… Did you know that you are that one?
Listen to those who are in jeopardy;
Listen to that small voice whispering that they are in trouble;
Listen to that child with the wayward, furtive glance;
… And be prepared to take part in their future.
For if you do not listen and talk;
If you do not participate and take responsibility;
If you do not guide and offer them your heart and wisdom;
… It is we, who will join in their misery.
It reaches beyond your own immediate children;
It reaches beyond their friends and peers;
It reaches beyond your nieces and nephews;
… For it is every child you come in contact with.
Positive action begins in our own backyards;
Positive action flows through your own neighborhood;
Positive action can encompass your own small town or city;
… And through this, we are all connected.
Be a mentor when others fail to counsel;
Be a counselor when others fail to listen;
Be a listener when others fail to notice;
… Be a positive experience with every child you meet.
For yesterday, someone looked the other way;
Yesterday, someone pretended they did not see;
Yesterday, someone passed by without offering help;
… But today, it is not too late.
Today, you can make a difference in someone's life;
Today, you can offer your love and guidance;
Today, you can choose to be a positive influence for another;
… And then maybe, just maybe, our world will change with you.
MUCH LOVE BY KIERAN NORMAN
november 26, 2007
special, unforgettable, easy to love
you'll be the angel watching over me,
a soaring white dove
i love and miss you kieran.
love always, kacie kay
you'll be the angel watching over me,
a soaring white dove
i love and miss you kieran.
love always, kacie kay